When we have suffered the loss of a loved one, have been hurt or disappointed, are in the grieving process or have struggled with rejection – we often don’t feel that we have a future. It seems there is no longer anything to look forward to. The future seems pointless, purposeless and empty. Do you ever feel this way? If I were to ask you what you feel about your future what would you say?
God wants us moving into the FUTURE – Satan wants us living in the PAST. God wants us to have HOPE – Satan wants us to have despair. God wants to give us energy, vitality and courage to move forward – Satan wants us stuck in the past. God has new plans for us – Satan wants us to play the same old broken record of regret, despair and hurt.
This last year I was trying to be positive and move into the future. I was praying, fasting and trying to find what God has for me. Yet no matter how hard I tried to move forward I kept thinking about my past – past hurts, past mistakes, past regrets. As a parent I would often replay the times I was harsh to my daughters. I began to think of myself as a terrible parent. I would push bad memories out of my mind but they kept popping up, day after day.
Then my 20-year-old daughter came for a visit. I had been praying that it would be a healing visit for all of us. One afternoon she asked me to sit down and watch old family videos. We sat laughing together as we watched the girls antics when they were young. Then a Christmas scene came on. My daughter Nicky received a hair bow in her stocking. I tenderly took the bow and placed it on her head.
Very softly I said “Nicky, you will look so pretty when you wear this in your hair. It will make you look special.”
I thought “That’s ME?”
I was actually a nice, soft-spoken, tender mom?” I was incredulous. I had personified myself as a witch. Satan had duped me once again! The memory that he played over and over in my mind was NOT TRUE! Sure I was mean at times – but not always! Sure I was harsh every so often – but not ALL THE TIME! I sat in front of the screen stunned. Then something amazing happened – it was as if I suddenly was released from my past. The past was over. The past was dead. Today, right now, tomorrow – these are all that I could see.
Then it became clear – I could not move into the FUTURE until God healed my PAST. God used an old family movie to show me that my memories were distorted. I saw a picture in my mind: I was on a balcony wanting to move into a building (my future) – yet my hand was clenched onto the railing (my past). Jesus was in the room pulling one hand to get me to come in – but there was a tug of war because my other hand stayed clenched to the balcony. I couldn’t let go. I was stuck without a future and yet could not live in the past. This had robbed me of my joy. This had robbed me of my hope.
You may have a past regret, mistake, memory or experience that is “pulling” you back. God wants to heal you and pull you into your future. Yes, God does have a future for you – and it is much more wonderful than you or I could imagine. Ask the Lord today to heal your past – see Post Balm of Gilead https://jackieosinski.wordpress.com/category/balm-of-gilead/page/3/ that there would no longer be a tug of war between your past and the future.
“Lord, I pray for my friend. You know how much they have longed to move into the future. They want to believe that there is a future, a hope, a joy. Heal each memory, each distorted thought, each hurt and wound. I now release my friend into the future. I release them in Jesus name into the hope, the power and the joy of what you have in store for them. SATAN – get your hands off their memories NOW! Your powers were broken at the cross 2000 years ago. I command that you release them and their mind in Jesus name.”
Now friend, I want you to smile – because your future is beautiful.